Not Enough Time in the Day

I have learned many things since I came to Converse. I learned that relationships are hard to manage with everything else in school. I do not have a roommate or hallmates because I do not live on campus. I do not really have time to form a real relationship with my classmates and the only relationship I have with my professors is in the classroom or to ask questions. It is hard enough to have any kind of real relationships with my family or fiance, must less have the time to make new ones. I go to classes in the morning, get home in the afternoon, and do homework well into the night. Then, take a shower, go to bed and try to sleep, wake up and start all over. If I sacrifice some time to do something with my family it hurts me bad. Then, I have to speed through homework and it does not come out as good as it should have. I stress so much because I can not balance time for everyone and everything. That pretty much describes my relationships with people at this point. It is very hard for me to balance things and so I have to pick. Right now I think homework is more important.

The Library rocks!

Well first off let me go ahead and say the oppurtunity that I had to go to visit the writing center it was closed. I moved around the library to a couple different places. First, I started on the first floor lobby but it was too distracting. People were talking and coming and the door, the people that came in that I knew would stop and talk. Then I moved up to the second floor, where I planned to visit the writing center, but it was closed. I sat across to the other side of the room where the computer was. It was really quite. No one was up there at all, which may have been becaused the writing center was closed. Then I moved up to the third floor, to the little desks in the video section, down beside the maniquin. It was really quite and comfortable. It was the best I decided for me, compared to other places on campus. Like, for instance, the Day Student Lounge, I can plan to work when I get there, but when I do everyone is talking and laughing and carrying on, and then I start talking and before I know it, it is time to go to class already. Although the library is a really good place to study, it just is not the best place for me. The best place that I can study is a home, in my room, alone, in complete silence. When I do this to study I can concentrate so much better. It may just because the quietness and being alone makes me bored to the fact of doing nothing that when I am studying it feels more like I am doing it to just be doing something than like I am doing it because I have to, which makes it a lot easier and more fun also.

Honesty is the Best Policy

Being completely honest for 24 hours was very interesting to me. I learned that I am kind of already a honest person. I responded to most things the way I normally would. One of the challenges of being completely honest was the part were you could not tell little white lies to prevent hurting someones feelings, such as telling them their painting or drawing was pretty when you could not even tell what it was. Or telling someone that their outfit is cute even though you think they look hideous. Most of the time if I am really close to someone, unless it is a small kid, I would really tell them what I thought. If I really do not know someone I do not want to be mean and of course if the person is a little kid, you do not need to be negative, you need to encourage them and not hurt their feelings. I think being completely honest and academic integrity is really important in college. If you need help or you do not understand something then you need to be honest and ask questions, do not just pretend that you know what you are doing if you do not. To be complete engaged in your academics you definitely need to be absolutely honest with your professors and classmates. I do not think little white lies such as telling your friend they look good if they look exhausted to make them feel better is wrong. If they look really bad however, you should check on them. Make sure that nothing is terribly wrong and make sure that they are okay. So, lets make goals to being completely honest this year, especially in our classes and to our professors.

My Interests

In high school I was not involved in any organizations. I graduated in the National Adult Education Honors Society. That is about the only thing that I was involved in. This year in college I would like to join a club or two, but I would rather focus solely on my class work. I have a work load now and it is only the second week of school. I went to Adult Education not traditional high school and we never had homework and barely did required school work. We just learned what we did not know so that we could pass the pre-GED test and then the GED test. I want to do and be the best I can in college. I want to put all my energy, strength, intelligence, and time toward becoming the best I can be. I think the schedule and studying stratagies that I set for myself this first year in college will prepare me to make wiser discisions with my time during the rest of my time at Converse College, and then later on in graduate school. So, I think I am going to just lay low and focus solely on my academic studies.